They can always control. \n\nAnd they are there. \n\n\n\n[[waiting|f2]]
[[I can't rest|f3]]
[[“Give in”|f4]]
I have to [[fight|f5]]
[[“Give up”|f6]]
Bad things happen when you [[rest|f7]].
[[RED|hands]]
[[you wake to worse|f9]]
Did they do this to me? \nI woke up and they did this to me. \n\n[[I couldn't stop them.|e1]]
Are these hands even mine?\n\n\n[[I don't know|mirror]]
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My attempt to create a sort of twine game that shows, in some way, what a flashback (I suffer from PTSD) feels like to me. \n\n~violet magician\n\n[[start|smell]]
Are these the same memories? \n\nIs any of this \nthe \n\n[[same|w6]] \n\n\nmemory?
Who said that? \n\nWas it him? \n\n[[Was it them?|w5]]
"This is for your own [[good|w4]]."
[[YOUR HURTING ME|w3]]
"You have to [[relax|w2]]"
I look in the mirror.\n\nIs that me?\n\n[[Really?|really]]
I [[know|smell]] that colour
There are people around. \n\nTalking\nColours\nScent\n[[Colours|g1]]
[[someone is here|c2]]
Nothing looks the same. [[Nothing|c1]] looks familiar.
[[get out|out2]]
Locked away. \n\nOut of sight. \n\n[[Where is everyone.|sh]]
[[you're hurting me|x2]]
[[Am I crying?|g2]]
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The TV is on. Am I even watching it? I don't know these people. I don't know what they're saying. Someone is speaking.\n[[Is it me?|me]]
[[I'm sorry|c8]]
you dream of [[nightmares|f8]]
[[I have to fight|fight2]]
I never agreed to any of this. \n\nI [[don't want|x3]] this.
How long have I lived here? \n\nHe was here, wasn't he? \n\n[[I feel him|out]]
[["Rest now"|r2]]
[[I'm sorry|c6]]
[[white|e6]]
I don't remember.\n\nMaybe I was [[never|five]] here.
Someone smells like him. I know the [[colour|red]] of his scent. I see it now. \n\nI can't escape him. \n\n\n\nWhy are you everywhere?\n
[[red|tv]]
[[GET OUT!|x5]]\n\nGet away from me!
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Hands. Everywhere. [[Are they mine?|mine]]
[[Here?|g3]]
"This is all [[your|c5]] fault."
I have to [[leave|w7]] this place
They're here\n\nThey're [[always|x8]] here
Drugs can stop that. Drugs can calm you.\n\n\ntake away your [[fight|f]]
[[Where|w9]] am I?
"It's for [[your own|x4]] good."
"It only [[hurts|x6]] for a moment."
I'm a \n\n[[person|r1]]
[["You are nothing."|c9]]
[[five|where]]
[["relax"|e9]]
[[Hands|hands2]]
Someone feels like him. Their hands on my skin.\n\ntouches of [[red|white]]
They [[always|e5]] say that.
[[it hurts|e8]]
[[What's happening?|e7]]
[[I can never stop them|e2]]
"You are a [[worthless|c7]] creature."
"It's for your own good."\n\n[[Is it?|e4]]
[[WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME|e3]]
I want to feel. Can I feel anymore? I have to feel [[something|red2]].
[[GET OUT|out3]]
[[GET OUT|out4]]
This place isn't supposed to have [[colours|o]] of you.
[["You're a thing!"|x1]]
[["Rest"|r3]]
I can't. I can't. \n\nI have to be [[alert|fight]]
It hurts.\nIt [[always|c4]] hurts.
[[PLeaSe nO|f1]]
I don't remember who I am.\n\nI don't remember what I am.\n\nI don't remember\nanything\n[[at all|x9]]
This isn't your place.\n\nThese aren't my hands.\n\nIt isn't [[yours|red3]]
[[“Shhhh”|r]]
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[[It hurts!|w1]]
Where am I? Have I been here before? \n\n[[Do I live here?|live]] \n\n
[[is it me?|c3]]